A new month, new energy, new business. As we highlight women in business this month and salute those women who strive for success, I must salute myself as well. I love to share my life with those who continue to follow my work along this path I’ve found myself on.
In September, just five months at my new job in a new position, I received a raise. As a program coordinator for an arts program, I went from part time to full time, with a salary increase. I work to remain humble on my journey, while also learning to praise myself for the work that I do and how far I have come.
I won’t speak for all women, but I do want to share my personal experiences in hopes that someone somewhere understands where I’m coming from.
I struggle with imposter syndrome. For those who maybe are unaware of what it means to feel this way, imposter syndrome is a feeling that you don’t belong in a position or in a space, despite having the proper experience and credentials. Some might feel they don’t belong because they doubt their abilities and accomplishments. Having imposter syndrome is being afraid that someone will see that you aren’t as talented, or you aren’t as competent as you might think you are. In reality, you are causing your anxieties.
Women, in particular, struggle with imposter syndrome because there already is a shadow of doubt within our socialization that tells us we don’t belong. Women are raised in a patriarchal society where men are promoted to be leaders and motivated to be breadwinners. Men are pictured to be stronger, smarter, more secure and straightforward. As women, we struggle to get our foot in the door. So, when we get inside, it feels like we tracked mud in, and everyone is staring.
I experience imposter syndrome differently based on the environment I’ve stepped in. I have these feelings every month writing these articles for those who are choosing to read them. I am a woman of color, from Chicago. I write for a women’s magazine in Dubuque, where writers and readers are predominately White. Sometimes I feel that maybe my voice doesn’t belong in this body of work. Sometimes I feel like I’m writing for myself, and no one reads my words at all.
I struggle with anxiety. I struggle with trusting myself and believing in myself. I’m learning to love myself and motivate myself. I teach myself to believe that what I say matters, and that my words will meet the right eyes and touch the right souls. I’m applying this to all areas of my life. I have to trust the process and trust that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be. I am a strong successful woman in business.
I want other women to know that I see you and I salute you. You belong. Continue working, and continue being you.
Rasharra Smith is a recent graduate of the University of Dubuque.
